Been awhile since I had set up a blog. I briefly remember having one several years ago but this is a new day and a new beginning and we're starting out completely fresh. :)
There's a few reason that I had decided to start a new one. Specifically there isn't any one reason... just that it was time. I used to write. A lot. Somewhere between then and now I lost that knack for writing. I'd like to get it back and maybe this will help me into starting my very first book. Although the book writing will come at some point I still have NO IDEA what my book will be about.
LOL All in good time though.
Currently I'm finally doing the part of my life where I'm living for just me. I live for my son too but it's finally my turn to shine. So I'm shining on. Having my son young put me in a place to push myself a little harder and a littler farther. I like where I am at now though. Living in my own place with the silence... except for the thoughts. At one point right after I moved out I really thought I was going crazy. I thought that maybe, just maybe, I was talking to myself way more than necessary because after all I was the only one answering myself. I finally have come to the conclusion that I am not crazy (entirely) just a little different. I've also decided that I am okay just the way I am. I think I'm finally comfortable in the skin I'm in.
LOLNot only am I here now but I'm also at a point that I am trying to help my family and specifically my brother but from afar (besides letting my brother move in with me). I'd like to express more about my brother but I feel that it is more of his own demons that mine and it wouldn't be fair to air his dirty laundry. The only thing I will say is that he's currently fighting some demons that I hope to help him get through. We keep reminding him that "this too shall pass". I hope that it's at least slightly
enough to help. I lend him what I can. In the end he is my family and my family is my heart.
Which brings me to the reason that I've decided to name my blog
BlatheringHeart and then there is the whole Fireflies of the Heart. I have,
throughout my whole life, heard people say "think with your head and not your heart"... I have always thought with my heart. It's just who I am. I try to think with my head... it just doesn't come and naturally as my heart. I like it this way. Sometimes I confuse my gut with my heart though. Nobody should ever
ignore either of those. :) I do, however, feel that sometimes when we think/feel with our hearts instead of our heads all that comes out in nonsense. :) I still like that too though.
Fireflies of the Heart... I've lived my whole life in the hot, dry desert. It sucks here. I will be getting out of here someday whether that means Seattle (where my heart lies)
or California or something. I'd like to live anywhere near the ocean and where there might be... I don't know, how about some trees and things of the like. :) We are getting off topic now... in my younger years my grandpa (
Poppi) lived in Illinois. I spent many summers there fishing, gardening, eating watermelon, and catching fireflies. He has since gone on to the next phase of life but it's one memory that I will always hold close. Fireflies. Someday I will be sure that my son and any future children I might have will have the opportunity to catch and release those little bugs that light up the humid skies of the place that holds so many memories.
Blathering... I really like that word and glad that it came to me. It fits what my blog will be quite well. :)
